Torn

Have you ever been torn about being two places at the same time?

Just wishing there were two of you to do both things?

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Well that is me today.

My man just drove out the driveway and I wanted to go with him.

 He is heading out again for another revival out of state.

I love being next to his side.

In ministry.

In life.

I know I can pray for him wherever I am.

But its not the same as being there...

where I can read his face and know when to pray more,

 and be with him to meet the people he will be serving while he's there,

 and be together to invest into the lives of the pastor and his sweet family...

all those things plus so much more that the Lord has called me to as Nick's helpmate.

But I am also the momma to these two who are still at home...

And this week they need me too.

To be there for "momma stuff"

for stuff like...

 taking pictures before one heads out the door all dressed up in a floor length gown on her way to a Spring formal with excitement all over her face,

and working on graduation invitations together,

and home school stuff that needs to get done.

And  with the other, designing wedding invitations

and picking out what grade of burlap to order.

and just  being here...present, because she is realizing that her time here at home is soon ending and she is savoring every moment she has with family, as just a girl, as just a daughter,

 in her own house, in her own room 

before she moves out 

and moves on to being a wife.

This is a season.

Soon I will not be torn between the two places to be.

They will have their places next to their men.

Serving along side them.

And I will be able to serve aside my man without having to choose whether to stay or go.

And sometimes, the Lord will bless us with sweet times of fellowship ....

All us girls

And it will always be welcomed 

and treasured

and savored.

So today... as the other half of my heart drives down the road,

I will miss him terribly.

I will pray for him fiercely.

And I will wait for his return impatiently.

And I pray we will have many many more revivals to travel to together and
....that this will be said of us.